I didn’t quite mature early as one would expect. I was opinionated, intelligent and chubby quite alright but many times when I remember some of the decisions I took as a teenager, I wish I knew better.
My challenges were endless. I was too believing, gullible and not street smart. As a teenager and in early adulthood, I didn’t understand the pattern of this world because I believed all creatures of God living on earth should have a pure and genuine heart.
I couldn’t fathom why people cheat kill or dupe other people. I just wanted a good life devoid of bad news, hunger, stress or pain.
To be honest, I was an open book. My facial expressions didn’t even help my openness because I got into trouble on many occasions for no fault of mine but just because of the way I arranged my face.
The fact that people could read my mind at every given time made me lose friends and gather enemies. We can’t blame my face alone, my big mouth also landed me in trouble several times.
I just wanted to be loved, accepted, pampered and cared for. Interestingly, the very thing I sought for was what eluded me the most.
Few years down the road, something changed in me. You can call it maturity but I choose to call it the gift of self discovery.
I finally realised that it is very okay to be alone and without a clique.
It is okay to have a really dry skin, protruding navel, sweaty forehead and voice like that of a cockroach.
It is okay to be an open book with a smile when I can afford one.
It is quite okay to be the odd one in the room.
It is okay to value my privacy and personal space.
It is okay not to allow anyone to intrude on my thought or defile my body.
It is okay to be ME. Weird, smart and everything sweet when I feel like it.
Now I understand the value of rejection. I can be open, honest and real while still understanding that not everyone deserves a permanent seat at the table of my life.
I was birthed into existence not by accident but with purpose and a promise. I will be a source of joy and inspiration to my generation.
So help me God. Amen!